A Day to Life Post-75!

Christmas and New Years are just around the corner and everyone is in the holiday mood, atleast I am.. :) ..
Today I just wanted to share few pictures of the Christmas trees and the decoration that I have seen around my city, Mumbai. They aren’t many pictures, I am still waiting to go see some more of the decoration. Yes, we do celebrate the holiday season in high spirit. :)

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Merry Christmas Everyone in advance and Happy Holidays! Will put up some more pictures soon. :)

Happy Weekend! :)

A Day to Life Post-74!

Lately I have been asked why am I not writing any posts, I know it’s been 3 weeks since I last blogged, well a lot happened since then. After my last zadankai on 16 November I went for like at least 2-3 more interviews also had a little accident. I slipped in the bathroom and hurt the back of my head on the toilet bad, that time for few seconds I didn’t know what happened with me. Everything happened so quickly that I didn’t realized when I slipped and sat on the bathroom floor holding my head and feeling dizzy.
No one was at home expect my younger brother, and I kept telling my head not to fall unconscious in the bathroom and get out of the bathroom immediately. Because the door was locked and my brother wont realize what’s wrong with me and why I haven’t gotten out the bathroom since a long time. Also he was getting ready to go meet his friends. I had to get out somehow and somehow I managed.
The fall was so bad, I had a bump on the head behind. That night and the following day was the worst for me, the pain was way too much and unbearable, but somehow I managed till the next evening to go see a doctor. He put me on pain killers and asked to get a ct scan done to rule out any internal damage or any blood clot, another nightmare for me. I am a claustrophobic person by nature to an extent that even if I see someone getting chocked on tv or a movie, I start to suffocate. So, to get a ct scan done was something unimaginable for me. That night with the medicines the pain was little less, but couldn’t sleep on my left side, I had to sleep on my right side the entire night, which continued for a week or so.
The next day somehow I gathered courage and went for the scan, and trust me I was sweating in a room which had an air conditioner. I was nervous like hell and the entire time I kept my eyes shut, thought about the happy memories of my life like happy time spent with my late father, happy time spent with my ex, and so on. And in between I chanted Nam-Myoho-Renge-Kyo.

After 10-15 minutes being in that machine, finally the scan was done and I was asked to wait for another 15 minutes for the results. When I got my reports, which were normal, I breathed a sigh of relief.

My grandfather had a similar fall two years back which lead to a blood clot in the brain and within 3 months he passed away. And to be honest I was scared that something similar will happen to me.

When I told couple of my buddhist members, they said they would chant for me, for my scan reports to be normal, and thanks to them it was normal. I came home that day after the scan and put in three daimokus for gratitude that I was safe and there wasnt anything serious.

My parents weren’t in town the entire time and I didn’t tell them till one day before they were coming back. They were scared too, anyone would be because brain injuries are fatal and no one can take them lightly.

So, yeah now I am better with on and off neck pains, which I am guessing will get better with time. I had stopped all kind of workouts, even my yoga for two weeks now, hopefully will start from tomorrow.

On Saturday evening i.e. 6 December, I had my zadankai planning meeting and I was selected to be the speaker for the zadankai on 21 December along with that I will be sharing this experience with my members, how I had the protection of the Gohonzon and survived such a fatal accident, if I had got hurt an inch up or down on the back of my neck probably I could have been dead by now. So the leaders told me that this was lessening karmic retribution, which means to receive it lightly and I must share it with other members which will encourage them. I did had an accident but the impact and the consequences were in a lesser form, it could have been worst and a big unfortunate accident as well. But, thanks to my practice and to the Gohonzon, I survived. I am so grateful to this practice, to Gohonzon and to this life.

I relearnt one thing, life is short, anything can happen anytime, so the best thing one should do is be fun loving, should enjoy every single moment in life without any complaints, without begrudging once life.

Have an amazing week everyone! I am glad I am alive! :)

A Day to Life Post-73!

November 18 is the anniversary of the establishment of the Soka Gakkai.

Tsunesaburo Makiguchi, first president of the Soka Gakkai, and his disciple Josei Toda (second president) published the first in a series of writings outlining the system of soka, or value-creating pedagogy, on November 18, 1930, and this date marks the founding of the Soka Kyoiku Gakkai–the Society for Value-Creating Education. The word “soka,” which was coined by Toda and Makiguchi, is a combination of Chinese characters meaning “create” and “value.”

Today, the theme of our zadankai was November 18 and along with that me and one of my fellow member got the opportunity of presenting the Peace Proposal 2014.

What is the Peace Proposal?
Every year, SGI President Daisaku Ikeda publishes a peace proposal which explores the interrelation between core Buddhist concepts and the diverse challenges global society faces in the effort to realize peace and human security. In addition, he has also made proposals touching on issues such as education reform, the environment, the United Nations and nuclear abolition.
The theme of this year’s peace proposal was Value Creation for Global Change: Building Resilient and Sustainable Society. For this Sensei has mentioned three aspects on the country level and value creation at an individual level as well. On country level the three points are : Global Education and Youth Empowerment, Strengthening Resilience and Abolition of Nuclear Weapons.

Me and my fellow member had to make a power point presentation and had to present it in front of other members, in a way we got the opportunity to represent Sensei himself. It was our good fortune to do that. We had to go through the entire proposal written by Sensei, 64 pages book, and we not only had to read it but we also had to imbibe it in our life, we had to see it from Sensei’s point.
For the past 4 days all I was doing was sleeping, eating, drinking, walking, talking, peace proposal. I didn’t want to go wrong in anyway, we had to make each and every member relate to the peace proposal, inspire them and make them understand how we, as a lay practitioner can contribute to the society.

In the whole process of reading the peace proposal to making the ppt to the presentation, what I realized was there’s so much actually going on in the world around us, there’s so much that SGI is a part of. SGI contributes in many ways all around the world, apart from spreading the law, which till date in my two years of practice was never aware of.

Also, what hit me was that we are so stuck in our own life, trying to sort out things in our life, and we are not aware of the things that are happening around us, in our society, in our country, between countries, some of us are not interested in the bigger picture. We feel that our problems are bigger than the world problems, we get caught up in our own life and keep running a rat race. Very few stand up to the injustice and try contributing in building a sustainable society. And those who do, we make them our idols, but even these role models were once normal human beings like us. They weren’t born with this thought, but somehow they couldn’t bare whatever wrong was happening around them and they decided to stand against the injustice.

They were also once normal humans like us, if they could do it, then why cant we? Why cant each individual work towards greater hope, peace and solidarity of the society. When the foundation will be strong then obviously the building is going to be very strong.

Sensei has given beautiful examples of Malala Yousafzai, how one girl stood for girl education in her native and was shot for doing so. Then there was a rage that we all saw and heard all around the world. One girl became hope for all the other girls in her native place.
Sensei is trying to convey through this example is that it requires just one person to inspire many others around you, the power of hope is very strong and that’s what we as Nichiren’s followers need to do, inspire everyone around us to bring in a change in the society.

I have decided to know about SGI more in-depth and talk to my leaders and find a way to make my contribution towards society in any way possible. The problems of my life are not as big as the world, and working towards creating a better society will always be more satisfying than working on my own problems, because the law is there to take care of my problems.

The presentation went amazing well and my fellow member and I did manage to touch each and every members heart, along with making them understand Sensei’s message in the peace proposal.

What I concluded with the whole proposal was that Sensei wants us to transform our inner self and do our human revolution and unite together for a peaceful and a sustainable global society. And the time is now, why wait for later, the time is now!

Hope you all had an amazing weekend !

Nam-Myoho-Renge-Kyo

A Day to Life Post-72!

We, the practicing members of Nichiren Daishonin’s Buddhism have a very big day coming up, November 18. This date marks as the anniversary of the establishment of Soka Gakkai by Tsunesaburo Makiguchi, first president of the Soka Gakkai, and his disciple Josei Today (second president) when they published the first in a series of writings outlining the system of soak, or value-creating pedagogy, on November 18, 1930, and it is also the founding date of the Soka Kyoiku Gakkai–the Society for Value-Creating Education. The word “soka,” is a combination of Chinese characters meaning “create” and “value.”
November 18 has come to symbolize a day when each individual strengthens their own determination and sense of responsibility to contribute to the welfare of society and world peace in the spirit of the three founding presidents of the Soka Gakkai. The members of the SGI are committed to putting into action the ideals and teachings of Nichiren Buddhism and becoming protagonists of peace within their local communities.

I joined the practice two years ago and this will be my second November 18. We all have set up goals and determinations which we will accomplish by November 18. When I joined this practice two years ago, I had too many questions in mind, I was going through a broken heart. I needed to see some light at the end of a dark tunnel, a driving force. And in these two years all I can do is be thankful to this practice, being grateful to have encountered such a beautiful practice and I am also grateful to my ex, yes I am grateful to you. I know you will be reading this blog (since my posts are the only way of contact), I am grateful to you, it was because of you two years back I got a chance to practice in the first place, and I got a chance to change myself. And again 3 months back you gave me another chance to really do my Human Revolution and give this practice my 100%. After breaking up with you in August 2014, I realized that Kosen-rufu is my mission, I was born to encounter this practice, and it was my karma to encounter this practice because of you. You were always the reason, in all my lifetimes, I had to come into this practice only after going through all the heart pain. Also, you came in my life so I could expiate my negative karma from the past, so thank you.

One of my goal towards November 18 is to forgive you from my heart, for what happened two years back and for what happened 3 months back. Also I would want to forgive myself and free myself from you once and for all and move on with my life. I don’t want to carry any baggage while I move on. Baggage of my past with you, so I forgive you and I forgive myself. I forgive you for whatever you did and I forgive myself for hurting the Buddha in me and you. Yes, everyone is a Buddha, it’s just some realize it and tap onto their Buddhahood in their life while some spend their life after life without realizing it.

Today, I don’t get bogged down with anything that happens around me, good or bad, I am not bogged down at all. And it is only because of this lovely practice. There’s one particular goal that I am praying for to be fulfilled, which we will only know by November 18.

It’s time to renew my vow, it’s time to be happy, courageous, it’s time for me to move on happily in life, it’s time for happiness, it’s time do something spectacular in life, it’s time to reach the unimaginative goals, its time to cross the limits, it’s time to make the dreams come true, it’s time to let the world know about the practice and it’s time to make my Sensei’s mission my mission. It’s time for Kosen-rufu..

Have an amazing weekend everyone!

Nam-Myoho-Renge-Kyo

Even Today!

Even today I stand at the window,
With a hope to see you standing down..

Even today I wake up at 4-5 am to see my phone,
With a hope to see your name on the screen..

Even today I can feel your breath,
Which makes me think you are just around..

Even today I remember the October of 5 years back,
All the memories are still fresh..

Even today I keep thinking about how you might be,
Because that’s all I have done..

Even today you are a part of me,
Which is the toughest part..

Even today I stand at the window,
With a hope to see you standing down..

Even today..
Even today..

A Day to Life Post-71!

Is it true that when you stop trying to fix things, like a relation, you actually find happiness and freedom? I was trying to sleep and this line kept running in my head, I just couldn’t stop thinking about it at all. I am a big follower of Grey’s Anatomy and have been following the season 11 online.
The other day I watched the episode 5 where Callie and Arizona break up. The episode starts with them visiting a couple counselor to make their relationship work, and are asked to stay separate from each other inspite of staying in the same house. Separate rooms under one roof for 30 days without even talking to each other. Initially Callie is against it and is forced into accepting the decision in order to save her marriage. She breaks down the first day itself and talks to Arizona, who is strong headed and doesn’t utter a word. Somehow they manage to finish their 30 days and in the end Callie, who opposed this throughout, who always kept trying to save her marriage, who always kept fixing things, is the one calls it quits. Yes, somehow Callie realized in these 30 days that all this while she was suffocated in the marriage and was no longer herself. She wanted a break permanently in their marriage and no longer wanted to spend all of her time trying to fix something that she believed was broken already for far too long. She wanted to be happy again and didn’t envision that happening with Arizona. This episode ended with a line, “But no matter how hard we try, we have to realize, somethings can never be fixed”.

Once I finished seeing this episode, I had a smile on my face, especially after hearing the last line. A smile because I could see me and my ex in these two characters. I was the one who kept trying to fix our relationship all the time, which seemed like he didn’t want to. The day we broke up, I obviously stopped trying to fix something, all I had to do was think about myself, my happiness, my likes and my dislikes, and not what he wanted. For the first time I feel free, and trust me the taste of freedom is amazing. I have been in a relationship for like 15 years of my life, yes. First with my late fiancé and then it was my ex. All these years I never had the time to think about myself. And today, it’s all about me.

I could very well relate to a fictional character of Callie. Even that day after watching the episode, I slept with this thought, that I am free.

Being in a relationship is amazing, it’s a totally different experience, but when you are with the right person, situations always change, everyone has to go through some rough days and some happy days. During happy days, everything is great, even the relationship with your partner is great, but it is during the rough days the relationship is tested. Even I had great days with my ex, but when the tough days were bigger than our relationship. We couldn’t sustain, we tried making the relationship work twice but we failed. There’s no doubt my ex was a great guy once, but circumstances have changed him a lot now. It has changed me as well.

What I realized after the episode is happiness is important, there’s nothing wrong in thinking about my happiness. When I am happy I can keep others happy. Happiness for others and ourselves is equally important.

Have an amazing week everyone !!

A Day to Life Post-70!

So finally the Diwali is almost to an end. Can’t believe even Diwali is over. There’s a big market lane at about 2 minutes walking distance from my place and every year all the shop owners chip in money and one week before Diwali the entire market is lit with lights. It’s amazing to see and walk through the market, it feels as if all the stars are falling on you.
I clicked a picture yesterday and thought of sharing with you all along with a picture of me dressed up in Indian clothes during Diwali. I was wearing a pure silk saree which was bought from Kerala.

 

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Hope you all had a wonderful Diwali !! :)

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