Well, just few more minutes left for us to bring in 2015 in India, so I just wanted to take few minutes and wish you all a very Happy New Year ! Have an amazing 2015 everyone ! And I would want to thank each and everyone on WordPress for making 2014 a memorable one. Thank you all wonderful people ! Hope you all have an amazing New Year’s Eve !
2014 is almost to an end, this year flew by so quick and not to forget that it has taught me many things in life. When I now look back at 2014 (though couple of more days to go for it to end) in a way I am grateful and thankful to all the lessons I learnt in the year 2014, because they have only made me a much stronger person. Today’s blog is like a flashback of my 2014.
There are way too many lessons I learnt after my break up in August this year, to begin with never lose your self respect. People will treat me the way I allow them to, so it’s upto me how I want them to treat me. Everyone has the right to protect themselves from being ill treated, there shouldn’t be any compromise on that. You need to maintain your self respect and dignity even if it requires to walk out of someones life if you have not been treated the way you had hoped.
Other thing what I learnt was never get bogged down no matter what. Life is a roller coaster ride, highs and lows are a part of it. When in difficult time or faced by a failure of any kind (work, relationships) one must never feel defeated, you should stand up and face the situation with courage and confident that this phase will also pass soon.
There was one another mistake that I did in 2014, it was bowing down to someone, which is considered as a sign of respect towards elders here. But what I now realise, is it only by doing so I will be able to show my respect towards the elders? No. Respect should be from the heart and not by bowing down in front of someone or touching their feet. If I dont genuinely respect them from all my heart then such gestures are meaningless. Also, I realised that everyone around me is equal, no one is superior, be it elders or even people those who are younger to me. I have never bowed down in front of my own parents or grandparents, then why should I in front of someone else. God made us all equal and that’s how we should all remain, because in my buddhism it is said that the day we forget we are all equal, we let the ego in us grow to an extent that gives rise to anger and the life state of animality in us. Such life states are called the TEN WORLDS. So, I have decided to treat each and every person as equal, which is as a Buddha. If I want to respect someone, it will be through words and actions and not by such meaningless gestures again.
After August, my best friend’s sister told me one thing, never give in all the love you have to one person, you should keep some for your own self until you meet the right person in life. I think it made a lot of sense. There are some of us who just shower the other with all the love you have, and when the relationship ends, you are left with nothing. This is one thing I dont plan to repeat again.
I keep reading a lot of quotes, the two which stuck onto me were, “Never run behind someone who doesn’t care” and “if someone loved you or cared for you truly, his/her actions would have spoken differently”. This was the biggest lesson of my lifetime. I know it took me many years to learn and understand this, but it will stay with me for the rest of my life.
I have always been a fun loving person, a person with full of life, always smiling and laughing. But in these 5 years, I realised that I had changed a lot, changed to be the kind of person how my ex wanted, which has now made me realise that’s not how a relationship work. If you try to change one another, that relationship wont last for a long time, because true love never demands change. Since August, I have gone back to my old self, which is amazing and to be honest I am loving every bit of my old self. I am happy than before because I have gone back to being the same fun loving person that I was 5 years back, and yes again I dont plan to change myself ever again for anyone in the future also.
Along with all this the biggest realisation that dawned onto me is that I am a Bodhisatva, I need to spread the Nichiren Daishonin’s buddhism, and make kosen-rufu my mission (which means to propagate the law). Since August, I have put in more time in Soka Gakkai activities, meeting other members more often, my chanting hours have also increased and I am doing my Human Revolution everyday in someway or the other and trust me it is an amazing feeling. 🙂
So, yeah this has been a summary of my 2014, filled with lots of emotions, realisations and lessons learnt. I dont regret anything because all the harsh situations have only made me more courageous, confident, wiser and I have come out as a winner. So no regrets at all.
I would also want to take this time and thank all you wonderful people whom I met through WordPress. Thanks for liking, following my blog and for the wonderful comments on my blogs. 🙂
I wish you all in advance a Happy New Year-2015! 🙂
Christmas and New Years are just around the corner and everyone is in the holiday mood, atleast I am.. 🙂 ..
Today I just wanted to share few pictures of the Christmas trees and the decoration that I have seen around my city, Mumbai. They aren’t many pictures, I am still waiting to go see some more of the decoration. Yes, we do celebrate the holiday season in high spirit. 🙂
Merry Christmas Everyone in advance and Happy Holidays! Will put up some more pictures soon. 🙂
Happy Weekend! 🙂
Lately I have been asked why am I not writing any posts, I know it’s been 3 weeks since I last blogged, well a lot happened since then. After my last zadankai on 16 November I went for like at least 2-3 more interviews also had a little accident. I slipped in the bathroom and hurt the back of my head on the toilet bad, that time for few seconds I didn’t know what happened with me. Everything happened so quickly that I didn’t realized when I slipped and sat on the bathroom floor holding my head and feeling dizzy.
No one was at home expect my younger brother, and I kept telling my head not to fall unconscious in the bathroom and get out of the bathroom immediately. Because the door was locked and my brother wont realize what’s wrong with me and why I haven’t gotten out the bathroom since a long time. Also he was getting ready to go meet his friends. I had to get out somehow and somehow I managed.
The fall was so bad, I had a bump on the head behind. That night and the following day was the worst for me, the pain was way too much and unbearable, but somehow I managed till the next evening to go see a doctor. He put me on pain killers and asked to get a ct scan done to rule out any internal damage or any blood clot, another nightmare for me. I am a claustrophobic person by nature to an extent that even if I see someone getting chocked on tv or a movie, I start to suffocate. So, to get a ct scan done was something unimaginable for me. That night with the medicines the pain was little less, but couldn’t sleep on my left side, I had to sleep on my right side the entire night, which continued for a week or so.
The next day somehow I gathered courage and went for the scan, and trust me I was sweating in a room which had an air conditioner. I was nervous like hell and the entire time I kept my eyes shut, thought about the happy memories of my life like happy time spent with my late father, happy time spent with my ex, and so on. And in between I chanted Nam-Myoho-Renge-Kyo.
After 10-15 minutes being in that machine, finally the scan was done and I was asked to wait for another 15 minutes for the results. When I got my reports, which were normal, I breathed a sigh of relief.
My grandfather had a similar fall two years back which lead to a blood clot in the brain and within 3 months he passed away. And to be honest I was scared that something similar will happen to me.
When I told couple of my buddhist members, they said they would chant for me, for my scan reports to be normal, and thanks to them it was normal. I came home that day after the scan and put in three daimokus for gratitude that I was safe and there wasnt anything serious.
My parents weren’t in town the entire time and I didn’t tell them till one day before they were coming back. They were scared too, anyone would be because brain injuries are fatal and no one can take them lightly.
So, yeah now I am better with on and off neck pains, which I am guessing will get better with time. I had stopped all kind of workouts, even my yoga for two weeks now, hopefully will start from tomorrow.
On Saturday evening i.e. 6 December, I had my zadankai planning meeting and I was selected to be the speaker for the zadankai on 21 December along with that I will be sharing this experience with my members, how I had the protection of the Gohonzon and survived such a fatal accident, if I had got hurt an inch up or down on the back of my neck probably I could have been dead by now. So the leaders told me that this was lessening karmic retribution, which means to receive it lightly and I must share it with other members which will encourage them. I did had an accident but the impact and the consequences were in a lesser form, it could have been worst and a big unfortunate accident as well. But, thanks to my practice and to the Gohonzon, I survived. I am so grateful to this practice, to Gohonzon and to this life.
I relearnt one thing, life is short, anything can happen anytime, so the best thing one should do is be fun loving, should enjoy every single moment in life without any complaints, without begrudging once life.
Have an amazing week everyone! I am glad I am alive! 🙂