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A Day to Life Post- 94!

Hello everyone, I just realised that it’s been a month since I posted my last blog. I must say that I didn’t realise that it’s been so long, days are flying super fast. I was worked up with many things, but the one thing that has affected me the most is someone’s behaviour towards me. Once again I gave my ex the opportunity to take me for granted and play with my emotions, I dont understand why I keep doing that to myself. I also dont understand how can someone behave so bad especially with a person who was once very close to you. If he really loved me like he used to say 3 years back, then he wouldn’t have hurt me so many times. What he doesn’t understand is that in this whole situation, he is only gaining bad karma, because honey, what goes around, comes around. You need to understand that. It’s sad that he doesnt.
I believe in one thing, karma is the sweetest revenge!

Recently I realised a big human revolution in me, a big change in myself. In Nichiren Daishonin’s Buddhism, every person has 10 worlds in them, right from anger, hell, animality, hunger, humanity, rapture, learning, realisation, boddhisatva and buddhahood.. And when we chant Nam Myoho Renge Kyo, we can tap on our buddhahood. So, recently I realised that the life state of anger and hunger has vanished from my life. I dont feel angry at all no matter what the opposite person does, no matter how bad the other person is towards me. For e.g my ex, inspite of his behaviour towards me I dont feel angry. I have now started sympathising on the opposite person’s life state. I feel that there’s no point on getting angry because they are in one of the lower state of life. All I feel is sympathy on their life. Also, I am not hungry for many things in life, I am content with what I have. Yes, I want to achieve many things in life, but nothing excites me anymore. I am not hungry, yes I want few things in life but I am not greedy. There’s a thin line between hunger and greed, the day you realise that, I think one will start seeing the world in a different way.

I have become centred in life too. Since you all know that I go for yoga classes, not to become a teacher but just for workouts. In April my present instructor was on a 3 week leave and in place of her there was another lady instructor who has been practising yoga for over 25 years. I know, that’s a really long time. Before every yoga class, she and myself would end up talking alot and she shared alot of meditation techniques. She used to tell us to pay attention to our body in each and every asana. And I started doing that, also I started practising at home on the days when I didn’t have my class. It helped me to get closer to myself, get closer to the inner me. And also centre myself, which is a very good thing. Now, yoga has become a part of my life like chanting.

Last week, it hit me that I dont like the city life anymore. I like my space, the quietness, calmness and peace around me. I have also been missing my trip to Goa which I went with my ex last year. I had a wonderful time. If he would have respected me what I deserved this time, I was thinking of going there once with him. But I dont think it’s meant to be.

Have an amazing week everyone and a wonderful weekend!

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A Day to Life Post- 82!

My silence is not my weakness.. It’s the beginning of my strength and it simply means that I dont find somethings important anymore.
This line has been running in my head since more than a week now. Doesn’t it give one a sense of achievement that finally you are not bothered with what people do? It does to me and it has only been possible because of my chanting.

Lately, I found myself being taken granted all over again by a person who was and is close to me. For me, after what I have gone through these 2 and a half years, it felt like deja vu and I am sure for all it’s not a great feeling at all. This person has always taken me for granted for the past 2 and a half years, and two weeks back it was the same. Why is it that when you have someone or something, we forget to value and appreciate them or it? It’s only when faith decides to take it away is when we realise it’s importance. I have asked this question way too many on my previous posts and trust me I always fail to get answers.

This time when I was taken granted for I simply did not allow it to affect me in anyway, I plan to move on. Move on to a better life, I realised that sitting and thinking about all these things is not going to give me anything, it’s better to not let this thing bother me at all. Which is not easy, but it is not impossible. It’s all about your dignity and self respect and no one else is responsible for it but we ourselves.

On March 1, I attended a study training course which was held by SGI Study Department Chief, who visited India from Japan, it was the first time that something like was held in Mumbai. The course was attended by 2500 leaders and I was one of them, including around 500 outstation guests from South and other cities of West India. From Mumbai we were around 2050 leaders, which was amazing. After listening to the study chief talk in Japanese, my friend and I decided to learn Japanese. I thought it would become easier to understand and feel more connected to the practice because Nichiren Daishonin was born in Japan. I am really looking forward to learn a new language, since I also plan to visit Japan soon. 🙂

Well that’s all for now. Will write soon! 🙂

Hope you all have a wonderful week!

Belated Happy Women’s Day to all the wonderful ladies! 🙂

A Day to Life Post- 80!

Hello everyone, yes I know it’s been a really long time since my last post, a month to be precise. Well, I think it was more to do with a writing block, I really didnt know what to write, to be honest I still dont know. When I sit down to write a post, at times there is a concept already in my head, and when the writing starts, I keep revising it. But today, I forced myself to blog hoping that my thoughts will come out.
This one month has been a bit interesting I think, though nothing has worked out on the professional end yet, but it did one thing for me, it made me realise my strengths all over again, patience and will power.
I am a person with little mood swings, one minute you will find me with full of energy and the other minute you will see me sitting silently without saying a word. Going for ample interviews made me realise that patience is the key to success. It made me think that you never know when the tables turn, today I went for an interview maybe tomorrow you are sitting in front of me as an interviewee. To be honest, I have never been so patience ever in my life before. I think everyone has their time, and my time will come soon. Maybe I shouldn’t write much about my interviews because most of the interviewers go through my blog. lol.

I guess this is life, everyday is a new lesson and everyday is a new beginning.

Second was my will power which I inherent, thanks to my late dad. He was a man of a very strong will power, whatever he achieved in life was due to his will power and intelligence. And I have been told many times by someone that I have the same will power. If someone faces alot of rejections, he/she are bound to feel dejected, and so did I. But what made me different was, I stood up and walked again, instead of giving up. I dont like to give up on anything in life, like you all can read in the tag line of my blog site, never give up. I think it’s very easy for a person to give up in life, be it anything, but it takes a alot of courage, handwork and strength not to. And I am a strong headed person, so giving up doesn’t happen easily to me. But if I ever do give up on something or someone, then I can never turn back to look at it again.

Last week I was promoted to a ywd block chief in SGI, which means that now I have the responsibilities of other members in my block and it is an amazing feeling. I attended my first area leaders meeting last week, there were around 50 leaders from all the districts present there, and to be a part of such amazing people was overwhelming for me. The entire experience was just unbelievable. I got to meet many senior leaders from other districts and in true sense my journey to kosen-rufu has just begun. That day sitting among so many members was like a scene from the Treasure Tower (a buddhist concept explained by Nichiren Daishonin where the ultimate reality exists) a “Ceremony in the Air”. I felt like we all were actually bonded when the Law was written. Yes, that’s how strong I could feel. It’s amazing what a responsibility can do to a person, especially when given a responsibility to spread happiness. All I have right now is lots of gratitude towards the practice.

Well, I guess I did manage to write finally, lol.

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Today I completed 10 days of chanting for 3 hours and 20 minutes. Yes, finally I accomplished what I had determined and it feels amazing to chant for so long. Chanting Nam Myoho Renge Kyo is a way to awaken one’s Buddha nature and tap into the deepest levels of our existence. And it did in a way help me to tap into my inner most self, I understood my strengths and weaknesses which I really need to work on, I have been and in a way it is a human revolution in itself.

While chanting, we face the Gohonzon, if we dont have the Gohonzon then we face a blank wall and with our eyes open we chant. Trust me it wasnt easy to concentrate for so many hours everyday, one hour of chanting is fine, but to chant for 2 hours in one sitting was little difficult. Yes, I would chant for 2 hours in one go and I wont deny that I wouldn’t lose concentration, I would. But then I would just tell the Gohonzon to give me the strength to focus in order to complete my target. I would take few seconds in between to drink water, because it’s not possible to chant for so long without sipping on water. I do feel happy and I am in a high life condition today. In 10 days I chanted for around 32 hours, yes, so much of good fortune. Members in my district call me daimoku (chanting) princess, 3:20 and bodhisattva 🙂

What I also realise is that chanting has now made me humble, its not that I wasnt humble earlier but now I actually feel it, which is a great thing. Just last week my senior leader had told me that once I finished 10 days target, I will become humble, atomically. I have inspired so many members in my district, they have chanted for 2 hours straight too along with me. My everyday updates on Facebook has inspired and encouraged many members from all over the globe too, which was one of my determination. And it feels amazing to know that you are reaching your goal.

I have determined to chant for 3 hours and 20 minutes everyday and I hope I am able to do so.

Nam Myoho Renge Kyo

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A picture of my note book containing my goals and determinations for 2015, my Gongyo book, my juzu beads, my one million daimoku chart book and my case. 🙂

A Day to Life Post-78!

This is my first post in the year 2015, I know I was away from blogging for so long. I hope everyone had an amazing time on the New Years Eve night. My new years was ok, I was home and after bringing in the New Years with my family went for a house party which was actually a couples party, and I just gate crashed it with my brother and his wife. Why? Because I didnt have any other place to go, and I was the only person who was single among those 4 couples. It was ok, I kinda got bored, which is understood, I was made the one to ask questions or be the judge during games.

I have joined many Soka Gakkai groups on Facebook, where members from all around the globe share their experiences, Sensei’s guidances and so on. Last week one member suggested that we should have a 10 day campaign of chanting for 3 hours and 20 minutes everyday. Well, I have never chanted for so long before in my 25 months of practice and it was kinda a challenge for me. I have been trying to get a breakthrough in many parts of my life, so I took the challenge and today is the 5th day that I successfully completed 3 hours and 20 minutes of chanting. Not everyone get this opportunity to change their karma and do their Human Revolution. I feel I am kinda lucky that I had time and wanted to make the best use of it, and there’s nothing better than chanting. I chant in 2-3 sessions and have also met couple of members in my district. I have leaders telling me that I am inspiring alot of members in my district. Not only in my district I am inspiring alot of people worldwide as well. Every night once I complete the target, I go on the Facebook group and put an update of the accomplishment, and it’s overwhelming with the responses I get from the members.

My one determination is to inspire and enlighten every single life on this earth and in my district in some way or the other for kosen-rufu, which now I feel is getting fulfilled through Facebook. And the feeling is amazing, to know that you have touched another life in someway is amazing. All I have in my heart is gratitude, gratitude towards this practice, and gratitude towards my own life.

Last week I was actually in a low state of life before taking upon the mission, and now I am in the high life condition chanting for so long. I plan to continue this even when the 10 days are completed.

What an amazing way to begin the first month of the New Year! Isn’t it? 🙂

Nam Myoho Renge Kyo

A Day to Life Post-77!

2014 is almost to an end, this year flew by so quick and not to forget that it has taught me many things in life. When I now look back at 2014 (though couple of more days to go for it to end) in a way I am grateful and thankful to all the lessons I learnt in the year 2014, because they have only made me a much stronger person. Today’s blog is like a flashback of my 2014.

There are way too many lessons I learnt after my break up in August this year, to begin with never lose your self respect. People will treat me the way I allow them to, so it’s upto me how I want them to treat me. Everyone has the right to protect themselves from being ill treated, there shouldn’t be any compromise on that. You need to maintain your self respect and dignity even if it requires to walk out of someones life if you have not been treated the way you had hoped.
Other thing what I learnt was never get bogged down no matter what. Life is a roller coaster ride, highs and lows are a part of it. When in difficult time or faced by a failure of any kind (work, relationships) one must never feel defeated, you should stand up and face the situation with courage and confident that this phase will also pass soon.

There was one another mistake that I did in 2014, it was bowing down to someone, which is considered as a sign of respect towards elders here. But what I now realise, is it only by doing so I will be able to show my respect towards the elders? No. Respect should be from the heart and not by bowing down in front of someone or touching their feet. If I dont genuinely respect them from all my heart then such gestures are meaningless. Also, I realised that everyone around me is equal, no one is superior, be it elders or even people those who are younger to me. I have never bowed down in front of my own parents or grandparents, then why should I in front of someone else. God made us all equal and that’s how we should all remain, because in my buddhism it is said that the day we forget we are all equal, we let the ego in us grow to an extent that gives rise to anger and the life state of animality in us. Such life states are called the TEN WORLDS. So, I have decided to treat each and every person as equal, which is as a Buddha. If I want to respect someone, it will be through words and actions and not by such meaningless gestures again.

After August, my best friend’s sister told me one thing, never give in all the love you have to one person, you should keep some for your own self until you meet the right person in life. I think it made a lot of sense. There are some of us who just shower the other with all the love you have, and when the relationship ends, you are left with nothing. This is one thing I dont plan to repeat again.
I keep reading a lot of quotes, the two which stuck onto me were, “Never run behind someone who doesn’t care” and “if someone loved you or cared for you truly, his/her actions would have spoken differently”. This was the biggest lesson of my lifetime. I know it took me many years to learn and understand this, but it will stay with me for the rest of my life.

I have always been a fun loving person, a person with full of life, always smiling and laughing. But in these 5 years, I realised that I had changed a lot, changed to be the kind of person how my ex wanted, which has now made me realise that’s not how a relationship work. If you try to change one another, that relationship wont last for a long time, because true love never demands change. Since August, I have gone back to my old self, which is amazing and to be honest I am loving every bit of my old self. I am happy than before because I have gone back to being the same fun loving person that I was 5 years back, and yes again I dont plan to change myself ever again for anyone in the future also.
Along with all this the biggest realisation that dawned onto me is that I am a Bodhisatva, I need to spread the Nichiren Daishonin’s buddhism, and make kosen-rufu my mission (which means to propagate the law). Since August, I have put in more time in Soka Gakkai activities, meeting other members more often, my chanting hours have also increased and I am doing my Human Revolution everyday in someway or the other and trust me it is an amazing feeling. 🙂

So, yeah this has been a summary of my 2014, filled with lots of emotions, realisations and lessons learnt. I dont regret anything because all the harsh situations have only made me more courageous, confident, wiser and I have come out as a winner. So no regrets at all.

I would also want to take this time and thank all you wonderful people whom I met through WordPress. Thanks for liking, following my blog and for the wonderful comments on my blogs. 🙂

I wish you all in advance a Happy New Year-2015! 🙂

A Day to Life Post-74!

Lately I have been asked why am I not writing any posts, I know it’s been 3 weeks since I last blogged, well a lot happened since then. After my last zadankai on 16 November I went for like at least 2-3 more interviews also had a little accident. I slipped in the bathroom and hurt the back of my head on the toilet bad, that time for few seconds I didn’t know what happened with me. Everything happened so quickly that I didn’t realized when I slipped and sat on the bathroom floor holding my head and feeling dizzy.
No one was at home expect my younger brother, and I kept telling my head not to fall unconscious in the bathroom and get out of the bathroom immediately. Because the door was locked and my brother wont realize what’s wrong with me and why I haven’t gotten out the bathroom since a long time. Also he was getting ready to go meet his friends. I had to get out somehow and somehow I managed.
The fall was so bad, I had a bump on the head behind. That night and the following day was the worst for me, the pain was way too much and unbearable, but somehow I managed till the next evening to go see a doctor. He put me on pain killers and asked to get a ct scan done to rule out any internal damage or any blood clot, another nightmare for me. I am a claustrophobic person by nature to an extent that even if I see someone getting chocked on tv or a movie, I start to suffocate. So, to get a ct scan done was something unimaginable for me. That night with the medicines the pain was little less, but couldn’t sleep on my left side, I had to sleep on my right side the entire night, which continued for a week or so.
The next day somehow I gathered courage and went for the scan, and trust me I was sweating in a room which had an air conditioner. I was nervous like hell and the entire time I kept my eyes shut, thought about the happy memories of my life like happy time spent with my late father, happy time spent with my ex, and so on. And in between I chanted Nam-Myoho-Renge-Kyo.

After 10-15 minutes being in that machine, finally the scan was done and I was asked to wait for another 15 minutes for the results. When I got my reports, which were normal, I breathed a sigh of relief.

My grandfather had a similar fall two years back which lead to a blood clot in the brain and within 3 months he passed away. And to be honest I was scared that something similar will happen to me.

When I told couple of my buddhist members, they said they would chant for me, for my scan reports to be normal, and thanks to them it was normal. I came home that day after the scan and put in three daimokus for gratitude that I was safe and there wasnt anything serious.

My parents weren’t in town the entire time and I didn’t tell them till one day before they were coming back. They were scared too, anyone would be because brain injuries are fatal and no one can take them lightly.

So, yeah now I am better with on and off neck pains, which I am guessing will get better with time. I had stopped all kind of workouts, even my yoga for two weeks now, hopefully will start from tomorrow.

On Saturday evening i.e. 6 December, I had my zadankai planning meeting and I was selected to be the speaker for the zadankai on 21 December along with that I will be sharing this experience with my members, how I had the protection of the Gohonzon and survived such a fatal accident, if I had got hurt an inch up or down on the back of my neck probably I could have been dead by now. So the leaders told me that this was lessening karmic retribution, which means to receive it lightly and I must share it with other members which will encourage them. I did had an accident but the impact and the consequences were in a lesser form, it could have been worst and a big unfortunate accident as well. But, thanks to my practice and to the Gohonzon, I survived. I am so grateful to this practice, to Gohonzon and to this life.

I relearnt one thing, life is short, anything can happen anytime, so the best thing one should do is be fun loving, should enjoy every single moment in life without any complaints, without begrudging once life.

Have an amazing week everyone! I am glad I am alive! 🙂